Living with Regrets

The one thing almost everyone has in common at one time or another is regret. The feeling of disappointment over a missed opportunity or possibly something else. Regret is one of our core components of emotions and is not a flaw. We need this emotion for more than you realize. Thing is, it is how … Continue reading Living with Regrets

Just Another Normal Massacre: Allen Outlet Mall Mass Shooting

Fuck all the noise about amendments and right to bear arms. There is a difference between owning a handgun, shotgun, or hunting rifle. A semi-automatic or fully automatic long rifle with a capacity to carry 15 or more rounds is not for sport or self-defense. It is a tool solely intended to end human life. This WAS REGULATED until 2004. Now look at where we are. The whole "good guy/bad guy with a gun" argument is absolutely retarded. Individuals with no criminal record or signs of violence can obtain a long rifle equipped to carry out mass carnage. All it takes is an emotional trigger or life altering emotional situation to send this seemingly docile person into a mental state to carry out mass carnage. By the way, the most recent Allen Mall Shooting was not stopped by a citizen carrying a weapon, those people ran. Why? Because a handgun against a long rifle with a large magazine is absurd. Except for the highly trained Allen police officer.

Things To Think About

How many times can someone break the law and get away with it? This whole Trump deal is ridiculous. The guy is crying about things that he tried to do to others and now is happening to him. He who cries the loudest and repeats the same thing is usually the one guilty of it. This has been true since the dawn of man. Anyone who sits in the chair of the most powerful nation of the world and spends more time golfing and calling people stupid, idiots, and losers just needs to go away. Period. His con is up.

And It Rains…

Another rainy day in North Texas. Looking out my window from my desk, I see the water hitting the pavement and wonder if the ground beneath it thirsts for water. Most will protect themselves from an element such as rain. A life-giving source that most take for granted. They prefer to use water to keep their lawns visually attractive to the human eye, yet unhealthy to the environment that surrounds them. Loads of transplants from western states come from drought-riddled areas, just to do the same thing to another region. Just so happens that I am in one of those areas. Having the inability to fathom what it is like to not care about anything but oneself, they come in droves. Like cattle looking for fresh grass. Hours spent thinking about it and accepting what is. Mother Nature is a powerful force. One that needs to be respected and cherished. I give thanks for all She provides. As if I do not, her offspring Karma will come around to see me. Sitting in the rain is the best form of relaxation and letting the water renourish the soul. I believe Father and Mother will always provide for those who receive in good heart and respect ALL accordingly.

Life, Love, and the Pursuit of Nothing

What is love? What does the word love mean to you? Are you sure that it is love or merely lust? Love is not the desire to indulge in something or someone. Neither is it the emotional feeling to have from possession of inanimate objects or animate for that matter. Love is a feeling deep inside that science has yet to pinpoint. Ok, they claim it to be called mydriasis. It is a chemical reaction that occurs in the brain when triggered to have deep feelings for another. Yet, that is just for another human. What about love for life. Whatever you want to compartmentalize and label it, love is the strongest emotion in the universe. Unfortunately, hate is not far behind, and lust obviously chasing as well, and is our downfall. If you can ever become one with yourself and watch how our planet's creatures watch after one another, intermingle between species and coexist together at certain levels, love is powerful. People will say that is not love, it is respect. This is true, but it is love for their surrounding that incurs this cohabitation and respect for one another. This is their love of life. Of course, there is the survival instinct of it, yet if animals have the ability to love, then you have to think. As a very young child. I watched a calf be separated from its mother, to take to sell. The look on the mamma's face. The eyes. I spent the week there at the farm and watched how that mother cow grieved. It amazed me. I was only a kid but couldn't believe a walking steak or hamburger could have feelings. "A cow?", I thought. I asked my stepfather, and he laughed it off and explained the cattle business. It had me asking questions no one could or attempted to answer. Why? Because everyone is wrapped up in their lives and stopping to tune into something deeper than just the crust of life is not something people do. We are focused solely on us as ourselves and hopefully a few others around us. Settling and seeking communication daily with my Abba. Asking such questions through mindful meditation. It comes back all the same. Yet, I do not know how to react to it. We break our souls and saturate ourselves with negativity to: look and dress to how our peers will accept us pay for frivolous items and bills worry more about having than giving lust over creature comforts that do nothing for us.. As we could keep going. Yet most feel love is how they feel about their home, vehicle, purse, designer jeans, hobby, image, or career. It is all nonsensical. We pursue nothing and a future of nothing. Think about that. We destroy more for ourselves to have than to respect and love our biggest gift. This planet and our souls. We spend more time isolating, hating, and ostracizing than learning to love ourselves, one another, and our home. Love is being comfortable in your skin. Loving yourself and everything about yourself. No material or physical cosmetics to make yourself feel adequate or lifestyle to portray. Just you. Think about this. We wake up tomorrow and there are no homes, vehicles, clothes, cell phones, technology, nothing. You are completely nude and the first thing that comes to mind while most are reading this is shame and complete vulnerability. Maybe the first thing that comes to mind is, "I would look good naked". Either way, this is what is wrong. We have to rise to the next plane of existence. We have been stuck on this one for millennia and it is getting old. Love goes beyond all that. For oneself and others. Our pursuit for nothing as a species is going very well. Look around you. Yes, the people glued to Tik Tok and busy filling social media feeds with doctored non-reality. The garbage projected through all media channels, people's mouths and minds, and the consistent race we are to completely wipe ourselves out as a species. It is not about confidence. It is about letting it all go. What happened when we were 5, it happened. It took me over three decades to quit blaming others for the abuse and neglect I received. Yes, I quit blaming the abusers. I made a conscience decision as a teenager and as an adult to fall into the same lifestyle. How did that work out for me? You see the word I used? If you didn't catch it, it was "I". My love for myself now is immense. When I do get those feelings that lead me in the wrong direction, I ask for the love and energy of the One who created all this. Everyday. I get those tingles like the first day it ever happened. The fluttering in my stomach and the smile I can't hold back. No words can explain that when you quit trying put your "bullshit" in the place of just letting go and opening your heart and mind, the beautiful sensations you will endure. The freedom. You are not broken, just need a tune-up. Every wave or vibration around you, starts with you. This will be hard to swallow, but letting go and allowing the good in will change your life. It is there, you are not letting it in. Trust me.

Do You Feel Dirty?

Dirty. What is dirty? By definition, it is meant to be covered or soiled with an unclean substance. So, what is clean? The synonyms of dirty are many. One I think of is filth or filthy. These words can be so callous and cut deep when used against someone in a certain context. Think of … Continue reading Do You Feel Dirty?

Family, Friends, and Crawdads That Sing.

We are all born the same. From a mother’s womb, ignorant to the world, and naturally bonded by nature to the one who carried us. Some get raised by that person, some do not. That is nothing new to humans. Since the dawn of humans, there has been tragedy and surrogate mothers and even fathers. This phenomenon even exists in the animal kingdom.

Change Your Mindset, Change Your Life

There is a good chance if you have been on any social media platform, shopping site, media page, or watch television or a streaming platform, you have been subject to several types of tactics to get your attention. Whether it be the good old click-bait tactics, shock factor, or algorithm using tailored information about you … Continue reading Change Your Mindset, Change Your Life

Santa Claus, Tooth Fairy, Miracles, and God

As a child, all of us believed in the supernatural. Heck, we believed in the tooth fairy, the Easter bunny, and Santa Claus. We get older and critical thinking takes over and logic kicks in. Well, for some of us. Millions, if not billions, of us, believe in a Creator. Some more than one, others … Continue reading Santa Claus, Tooth Fairy, Miracles, and God