Life, Love, and the Pursuit of Nothing

What is love?

What does the word love mean to you?

Are you sure that it is love or merely lust?

Love is not the desire to indulge in something or someone.

Neither is it the emotional feeling to have from possession of inanimate objects or animate for that matter.

Love is a feeling deep inside that science has yet to pinpoint. Ok, they claim it to be called mydriasis. It is a chemical reaction that occurs in the brain when triggered to have deep feelings for another. Yet, that is just for another human. What about love for life.

Whatever you want to compartmentalize and label it, love is the strongest emotion in the universe. Unfortunately, hate is not far behind, and lust obviously chasing as well, and is our downfall.

If you can ever become one with yourself and watch how our planet’s creatures watch after one another, intermingle between species and coexist together at certain levels, love is powerful. People will say that is not love, it is respect. This is true, but it is love for their surrounding that incurs this cohabitation and respect for one another. This is their love of life. Of course, there is the survival instinct of it, yet if animals have the ability to love, then you have to think.

As a very young child. I watched a calf be separated from its mother, to take to sell. The look on the mamma’s face. The eyes. I spent the week there at the farm and watched how that mother cow grieved. It amazed me. I was only a kid but couldn’t believe a walking steak or hamburger could have feelings. “A cow?”, I thought. I asked my stepfather, and he laughed it off and explained the cattle business.

It had me asking questions no one could or attempted to answer. Why? Because everyone is wrapped up in their lives and stopping to tune into something deeper than just the crust of life is not something people do. We are focused solely on us as ourselves and hopefully a few others around us.

Settling and seeking communication daily with my Abba. Asking such questions through mindful meditation. It comes back all the same. Yet, I do not know how to react to it.

We break our souls and saturate ourselves with negativity to:

  • Look and dress to how our peers will accept us.
  • Pay for frivolous items and ridiculous bills.
  • Worry more about having than giving.
  • Lust over creature comforts that do nothing for us.

As we could keep going. Yet most feel love is how they feel about their home, vehicle, purse, designer jeans, hobby, image, or career. None of this DEFINES us.

It is all nonsensical. We pursue nothing and a future of nothing. Think about that. We destroy more for ourselves to have than to respect and love our biggest gift. This planet and our souls.

We spend more time isolating, hating, and ostracizing than learning to love ourselves, one another, and our home.

Love is being comfortable in your skin. Loving yourself and everything about yourself. No material or physical cosmetics to make yourself feel adequate or lifestyle to portray. Just you.

Think about this.

We wake up tomorrow and there are no homes, vehicles, clothes, cell phones, technology, nothing. You are completely nude and the first thing that comes to mind while most are reading this is shame and complete vulnerability. Maybe the first thing that comes to mind is, “I would look good naked”. Either way, this is what is wrong. We have to rise to the next plane of existence. We have been stuck on this one for millennia and it is getting old.

Love goes beyond all that. For oneself and others. Our pursuit for nothing as a species is going very well. Look around you. Yes, the people glued to Tik Tok and busy filling social media feeds with doctored non-reality. The garbage projected through all media channels, people’s mouths and minds, and the consistent race we are to completely wipe ourselves out as a species.

It is not about confidence. It is about letting it all go. What happened when we were 5, it happened. It took me over three decades to quit blaming others for the abuse and neglect I received. Yes, I quit blaming the abusers. I made a conscience decision as a teenager and as an adult to fall into the same lifestyle. How did that work out for me? You see the word I used? If you didn’t catch it, it was “I”.

My love for myself now is immense. When I do get those feelings that lead me in the wrong direction, I ask for the love and energy of the One who created all this. Everyday. I get those tingles like the first day it ever happened. The fluttering in my stomach and the smile I can’t hold back. No words can explain that when you quit trying put your “bullshit” in the place of just letting go and opening your heart and mind, the beautiful sensations you will endure. The freedom. You are not broken, just need a tune-up.

Every wave or vibration around you, starts with you. This will be hard to swallow, but letting go and allowing the good in will change your life. It is there, you are not letting it in. Trust me.

Know this, love defines you. Thoughts?


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